cancer
do you know how it feels like to have sick child? i suppose only few of you does. my child was born with liver cancer. he spent 7 months in a hospital and almost died 2 times during that time. Don't worry he is healthy now. I just want to say how much i hated myself durin that 7 months (and i still do). cancer is very cruel illness. it lets you hope but in the end it wins. my son didn't let it do so. that is the just one reason why i hate myself even now. i didn't let myself to hope during those 7 months. i thought if i let hope in i'll be chrushed in the end. my son is my life and if something happens to him i will die. i know this is weird of me to write but i can't stop myself from thinking that if i tell people what i have done (or not done) i'll feel better. point of this story is to make me feel better but i'm afraid it is too late for that now. i didnt let hope in....and now i have whole life to try and correct it...
